It is hard to tell these days which is better to live in. Dream or Reality
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Sigh...Wonder if people get the feeling of just having able to hug someone...I just got this feeling that if i get to hug someone ill feel really blessed..I see so many couples on the street and yet its not jealousy of having a partner but the jealousy of being blessed...Friends cannot make up for that feeling because sad to say i have very general friends.Its just these days i really think alot and i feel that from this thinkings i have developed an awareness for appreciation...I feel so fucked up that i get frustrated when my parents pick on me when they nag at me...I mean even though i do not tell them anything could they not see my face?Its just hard for me when i get into these deep thoughts with so many feelings to handle...Luckily im getting along but i feel like im suffering really badly and its kinda taking a toll on myself emotionally and physically...I find comfort in loneliness in vices i should not be committing...What made me write these stuff you say...I say its the movie i watched today...Black Snake Moan...Apparently its my first "official" M18 movie , i was reluctant on it but my friends wanted to watch it so yeah...I was clearly mistaken about this particular movie i mean okay -_- it had sex scenes but very vague ones...But the point is the story,,It made me realised that life has more meaning to what it seems cliche i noe but its the truth..In the movie this girl misses her boyfriend so much that she goes around fuckin the whole town,its some mental sickness she got lah...But after this nigga helped her turn her life around she realised that things can be changed she realised that it is her life and only she can change it...I felt that it applies to my life as well without the sex part lah -_-...Yeah i noe u people out there i noe wad yall thinkin tsk tsk...Neways erm erm.........................................................................................................Forget what i wanna say already lah..
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A man confused of which reality he is living in.
Dum De Dum.
