It is hard to tell these days which is better to live in. Dream or Reality
Saturday, May 31, 2008
I feel helpless. I can't do anything to help her get rid of the pain...I feel that very pain as well in fact its double for me i guess..It is my first time laying down those tears for a girl..I have never been able tear easily or at all until i met this girl...She changed me, my life has been blessed and cursed at the same time...I do not even know whether to click on the publish button or not...I don't know what to do anymore...Guess this time i ran out of ideas.I am defeated...I love u so much...
& 2:14 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Just looking at her adorable face while she is sleeping right now...Makes me forget what pain her past has caused..It seems to keep recurring to me haunting me as if it was mine.I really hate her ex boyfriends and i am gonna be honest about that..The way they fuckin treat her..I would throw punches at them if i ever saw them anywhere...It hurts me so much just to see her cry each time she is reminded of them..I am blessed to be loved by her now and i hope she definitely feels the same from me..I don't think ill be able to sleep tonight or rather morning cause all i wanna do is see her sleep right now.I just wanna hug her tight and make sure there is someone there to greet her in the morning with a smile and a warm hug..I may not be able to offer her happiness in the form of luxurious gifts and items but all i can offer is my embrace and love...I really love you my Dear Esley Bunny. I don't give a fuck to how others perceive this post for what i feel is true from heart i have never loved anyone so deeply till i feel their pain before so i guess that is my proof.
& 4:58 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Can't believe i actually accidentally deleted all my msgs. FUCK....
& 10:25 PM
i ve got so much to say and yet i do not know whether i want to say it out or not.Well welcome to to life. You think it is what u think but it ain't what it is, over the past few months i have learnt what its like to have projectiles going through a mental heart feels like and i did not like it. I have commit therefore i am going to stand by my commitment. What it is for eternity may not be what it seems forever, i do not know if i am happy anymore...Its an entrapment in a cage, house or anywhere. Home is neither a place to be for i have no rights or say in anything it seems. My only agenda to them would be drawing money for survival and maybe puny entertainment.I have no rights to have fun for they don't.I guess i am trapped here as well. I am only borned to serve and adhere to what people want from me, either then that i might just have a little say in my life which is totally irrelevant.
Yeap, thats life.
& 10:18 PM
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A man confused of which reality he is living in.
Dum De Dum.
