It is hard to tell these days which is better to live in. Dream or Reality
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Just earlier on i was at my mother's friend's father's wake and hell yeah i was sad to have him leaving the world.Well i guess its just his time when one has to go one has to go period.Why am i so close to him?The story goes a long way back i guess,although ah gong thats what i call him is not blood related to me,everytime i visit him he always gives me the feeling of warmth and hospitality not to forget he always gives me 5 one dollar coins each time.I was happy not because of the 5 dollars worth but because he made me feel special and that he cares for me just like any other grandfather would.I am definitely gonna miss him a whole lot yeah.Okay back to the topic just then at the wake my parents were at a table where my mother's friend was there with us,they were talking about loads of stuff till they hit the topic which is ME then bla bla bla then it boiled down to what i have been doing since i am so free now, well that was what hit the spot.My mother told them i was ENJOYING MY BLOODY LIFE!! NEVER I REPEAT NEVER THINK THAT I AM ENJOYING MY BLOODY LIFE RIGHT NOW OKAY.I seriously don tink i have enjoyed the days passing by me i am feeling so horrible inside and all that is happening STUPID friends with their STUPID cliche.Everyday of my life is filled with emptiness and silence they think i enjoy playing the computer the whole day which i don think i am most of the time i have spent is reading articles and researching for things.My mother really underestimate me too much but i still love her nonetheless.I guess problem lies with me as well,i think i have developed a communication barrier with everyone i just cannot seem to hold a convesation without feeling awkward.Perhaps i think too much as thats what i think so,i believed my mind has become of an evaluation system,it evaluates a situation and begins to transmit orders to what i should do.Hopefully this phase of life past by speedily cause it sure as hell not one i want to be in for a long time.Okay thats all for now i guess its quite a long post eh? So Say We All
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A man confused of which reality he is living in.
Dum De Dum.
